My son was a few weeks old when I lost faith in God’s goodness. It wasn’t a conscious decision. The change was quiet, piercing, and painful. It happened in the darkness as my body stitched itself back together and new fears filled my mind like dirty laundry shoved too tightly into a basket. I fought …
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I’m too tired to tell him that I know each act of care is his way of saying, “I love you.” We’re both learning how to be both parent and lover. Father and husband. Wife and mother.
I have been in recovery for 13+ years. Each year gets easier. As I update this post, February 11th, 2021, I am eight months pregnant. Pregnancy has healed me in ways I might never have experienced if I’d not pushed the thought that it would “ruin” my body. Pregnancy has not ruined anything. It’s helped …
Have you ever found yourself comparing your family, small business, body, career, kids, relationship, or home with a girl you’ve never met in person? If you feel a little uncomfortable admitting this, then let me be the first to raise my hand. Girl, this past year has been a pit of comparison for me. I …
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When I was a little girl and people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up I’d say, “A momma.” I literally daydreamed about getting married at 18 and having kids at a young age. Reality is a little different that our daydreams, huh? I was married at 22 to Mason and …
B Positive I sat in a chair to the left of the airport departure door as the man behind the desk picked up the microphone and reminded us again, “This airplane has thirty-seven rows and one-hundred-eighty seats.” A few minutes later he said, “Five minutes to boarding.” One minute later, “Four minutes to boarding.” And …
I sat on my couch scrolling through Instagram when the words in the post featuring a photo of George Floyd shook me. “Your silence is speaking louder than words.” I shared the post and then continued scrolling. I didn’t like the idea of my silence making an impact but the words were from a random …
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A few months ago I choked back tears as I walked the empty rooms of my home. I took in the blue walls of my office with the bookshelf Mason built me. I imagined where my furniture used to be. I imagined never again seeing the place where I’d built my home. I was about …
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My life has not gone the way I imagined. I sat in the car on Christmas-day 2018 and said to Mason, “Wouldn’t it be so cool if next Christmas’s we had a baby with us?” He nodded in agreement with a hit of hesitation because he’s a responsible human and sees dollar signs when I …
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I made the man–who would later become my husband–lie in the center of a busy intersection (at 1 AM) on the night of our first date. I call it a date because it was the first time we were alone together with those we-could-be-more-than-friend vibes but we wouldn’t officially date until a few months later. …
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